The unsatisfied writer

Throughout my entire educational career there has always been some type of paper I had to write. Whether it be an essay about some point of time in history or some multipage paper written double spaced in MLA format it was something that, in my opinion, I have never really mastered or ever will. It is not the fact that my writing is inadequate, it is more of the fact that I over criticize my work no matter how long or how much effort I put into it. Besides the fact that I tend to procrastinate when I write, I am just never satisfied with the end result of my work in general whether that be writing or not. I could write a simple essay that may be perfectly fine if and outside eye were to read its’ contents and rewrite the whole thing because of my insecurities of the essay being up to par with everyone else. Just between me and the entire internet reading this I must have at least rewritten this blog five times before posting it. When I look at my work I over analyze it with questions like: Is my vocabulary was too simple? Does it flow? Did I use correct grammar? Writing may not be my favorite thing to do but I like the idea of writing as a medium to express my thoughts and feelings to an audience that takes time out of their busy lives to read it. Though my over criticism may not necessarily be a bad thing, it  makes the writing process even longer causing me to ultimately turn a perfect paper I wrote earlier into something I throw together to meet the deadline. People go to great lengths to achieve perfection, but maybe certain lengths are just simply too long to reach the distance someone needs to get there.